Computer Carry Over Grace

The computer guy had to come back to fix my computer again. It wasn't his fault that it was acting up and most probably was my fault. I turned it off when it was down-loading updates, hoping to be able to work on a project. All it did was to complicate things more.

Fortunately, my husband knows someone who can fix my computer when it goes loopy or I get impatient with it. When he came over to fix it, all I could remember was how frustrated I was when I had turned my computer off that time and one thing after another happened to it, none of which allowed me to use it.

I realized that I was tense with both my husband and the computer guy, although they hadn't done anything wrong. What I needed was Computer Carry Over Grace, although I didn't ask for it in those particular words. Once Christ showed me that I was feeling frustrated for no valid reason, I was able to turn things over into His very capable hands. Somehow, all those old feelings of frustration over what happened with the computer at an earlier date resurfaced, which was unfair to both of them. Hopefully, they never picked up on my feelings of frustration, but I know that after I prayed, my interactions were much more calm, like a big burden had been removed from me.

Time's Running Out Grace

Oh, this post is most definitely for me! I need to take it to heart!

I have planned to visit some family. I paced it in my mind that I had to accomplish particular things with my foot healing and my ability to walk freely, prior to that visit. I guess I set myself up. When I paced it like that, I was taking control of things, especially my recovery and I wasn't letting Christ be in control.

I was frustrated and almost panicky as time drew closer to the visit and I realized that I hadn't made particular milestones yet. In fact, I would practice all the harder, trying to push myself to meet those imagined goals I had.

I, right now, am praying for Time's Running Out Grace, so I don't keep pushing myself too hard and so I don't make other people miserable, because I'm not meeting my imagined goals. I really have to be willing to let this self-imposed pressure reside in Christ's very capable hands. He alone can heal me in time and if not, I need to trust His timing, which is always impeccable! 

Regression Grace

I was so very pleased on the day when I was finally able to walk more closely to a normal walking pattern. I had spent so many months healing from my broken heel. It was like all this freedom was immediately on the horizon.

I was not so overjoyed when I found I could barely walk again. It was frustrating to find that there were times when I had overdone it when my leg froze up and I could barely hobble around. I often had to resort to using the walker during those times. I needed Christ's Regression Grace, although I didn't exactly ask for it in those words. 

The thing is, Christ understands when we pray to Him, even if it's in brief prayers. Even if it's what's on our minds for that brief minute. He always understands. Christ understood my prayers and helped me when I was saddened when my gait regressed. 

Somehow, I just figured it would be this steady forward movement toward total walking like I used to. Maybe, Christ is allowing me to view this from a different perspective. I don't know that I always appreciate things as much if they come too easily. 

Messy Kitchen Grace

I was recuperating from a broken bone. Every time I saw the kitchen, I could see it was getting messier and messier, but I couldn't do anything about it. My husband was cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry, etc. I don't know what I would have done without his support!

I still felt guilty about not being physically able to go help tidy up the kitchen and didn't want to say anything to my husband, because it might make him feel bad about it. I had to put the status of the kitchen and other parts of my house into Christ's very capable hands. Once I did, I no longer had to pray about it, because Christ had given me Messy Kitchen Grace and the piles, etc. never seemed to bother me after that. I am soooo very blessed! 

Over Tired Grace

I was feeling over tired before I went to Physical Therapy. All I wanted to do was cry. I have no idea why, but that's what I feel like. My body was just worn out. I was afraid that if I tried to explain it to one of the staff, I would just start blubbering, so I didn't.

The funny thing is, the Physical Therapy staff has always been very understanding and supportive. They would have understood, but I still didn't want to say anything to them about it. Sometimes, I feel like "Wimp Woman" when I feel like I can't do everything.

As I walked on the treadmill, I tried turning this all over to Christ's very capable hands. He provided me with Over Tired Grace, although I didn't exactly ask specifically for it. Shortly after that, I didn't feel so teary-eyed. I had the energy to do the tasks presented to me. When I left, I felt energized, but know this wouldn't have been possible if I hadn't prayed to Christ while I was on the treadmill.